Moving Forward

At 16 years of age, I created this blog. It was something I had dreamed of doing for a few years prior. I thought I was ready for it, I thought I was mature, I thought my skin was thick enough to handle the bullying and I thought my life was on track. I thought I had overcome my struggles with fear. I thought I had already done my time waiting for the right one. I thought my struggle with body image and self love was in the past. I thought I wouldn’t struggle with being depressed or anxious anymore. I thought I was a good role model and I thought my life could only go uphill, from here.

Little did I know, I hadn’t overcome any of those things… All I had done was put my self worth into temporary things/distractions, which sure enough came to a crumble over the next two years.

I had placed my identity in becoming a qualified pastry chef by the time I was 18. I had placed my identity in the religious organisation I was apart of, the friendships and relationships I thought would be life long. I had placed my identity in the wife I thought I was going to be, to the man I thought I was going to marry. I placed my identity in the fact that I thought I would be a mother by now and most importantly peoples relevant or irrelevant opinions of me.

Fast forward to now, I’m a 20 year old woman and I’m excited for this chapter of my life. I’m grateful for everything I’ve experienced, both the good and the bad, the things that caused me a lot of pain and the things that caused me so much joy. I know my life will never be perfect but I also know, now that the only thing I can place my identity in, is the one who is eternal.

Yes, it still hurts when people say things about which may not seem the nicest. Especially when it’s coming from people who I really do love and care about, but that’s just the normal reality of being human.

So now I’m ready to care less about peoples opinions of me, to not be so harsh on myself for not reaching my unrealistic goals and to enjoy my life, just the way it is, right now.

I’ve changed over the years and I’m proud of that. Change is just a part of life, which can be a good thing or a bad thing but I’m no longer the same 16 year old girl I was, when I started this blog. My goals and dreams aren’t all the same as they were 10 years or even 5 years ago. I don’t want to do some of the things, I said I wanted to do or be the way I said I wanted to be. I will forever be changing as I become more confident in the woman I’m called to be.

Don’t let people’s compliments go to your head and don’t let their criticism go to your heart.”

– Lysa Terkeurst

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18 thoughts on “Moving Forward

  1. Amen.
    Beautifully said.
    And in time I hope you’ll realize to ignore the timeline with age and be content.
    The world makes age a huge deal while God isn’t concern with it. Many prominent people in the Bible fulfilled Gods promises in various ages, especially in older age.

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  2. Hello my love…………just read your blog & yes, am loving your new found outlook on life & our human imperfections that make us who we are, or better still, are becoming. Tis a never ending journey & I’m learning more about myself every day….my “quirkiness” will always be a part of me though, (!!!) so my advice for what it’s worth, is follow your Faith & all new areas will be revealed to you, probably when you least expect them to. My life with ups & downs has made me stronger in so many ways I never thought I would have to look at & God has been my constant strength to find “positives” & also to overcome “negatives”, but also to learn from them. I just love my life I have been allowed to have, with each day being a genuine blessing & for my wonderful family & genuine long term friends. Love you heaps Grace & am following your journey & sending you my love & a huge “HUG”.
    Nana x x x x x x

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  3. What a wise woman you are, Grace! I wish I had understood that my identity, and more specifically my identity in Christ, was so important when I was younger. Even while following Jesus since the age of nine, all the things I lived through and put myself through because of fear, pride, and rebellion, stole my identity. I just turned 60 and it was only a few years ago during a separation did I come to understand the full depth of how that made such an impact on my life. We all continue the process of healing and growing in the Lord with new insight and depth every day. Jesus, who began a good work in us will continue it until he returns. I wish you the very best as you continue to move forward! Thank you for checking out my blog. I hope you found encouragement there. =)

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  4. As much as this story is supposed to be sad you know about the things you went through and how you don’t want to do the things you wanted to do 4yrs ago. It’s actually very inspiring and it made me think very deep about what I really want to become and where I really want to be in a few years. I’m 17yrs old with very unrealistic dreams like you said Lol. But I still hope on achieving them because nothing is impossible

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    1. Whilst this story may be seen as a little sad, it is supposed to be a story of hope and (my) growth. Having goals is definitely a good thing but achieving them shouldn’t be the fulfilment of our identity or our happiness. I’m glad you found this post inspiring and thank you very much for reading! ❤

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